It Hit Again

Again, i felt like to running away from home.
I felt like family is not familiar but as stranger to me.
I felt like to be more open to stranger and getting closer.
I may not be smiling to my family and sometime i felt like they doesnt like me too.
I know its me myself that make it happen.I chose this situation.
I want to go away from all of them that knew me.
As son,
As brother,
As friend,
As worker,
As ex-student,
As stupid,retarded person that i have been.

This will be the end..but i dont know how.